I'll Take It!!

So...I am two days plant based!! Lots of greens, no animal products. I woke up before light and was lying in bed and realized I have NO pain. Man that doesn't really ever happen for me. I ALWAYS have pain....whether it's my back or my hip and leg from the nerve pain, or my foot...or my shoulder......I always hurt on some level in some part of my body. What a great feeling!!! I'm up now and I have some but I'll take what moments I get. What a great way to wake up!!

Wes and I went out to dinner last night and I got beans (which granted probably had lard in them) rice, guacamole and corn tortillas. It was delicious!! Filling, satisfying.....great!!! Here's my plan.......

I just got done rereading this whole blog.........One thing I'll give myself is that I no matter what happens I have never given up. I keep going, I keep trying...even if it's between long periods of not doing anything consistently..........I have NOT given up! I wrote my food plan down and then erased it.......I don't want a plan that I may not live up to......I am progress not perfection.......I'm going to eat a lot of green smoothies and big, dark green salads......some days I'll juice and then we'll just see how things go. I am not going to make myself crazy..some days I'll eat all plant based......oatmeal, peanut butter on ezekial bread....what I will try my best to do is honor my body...honor my life w/my choices.....try to think each time...does this build me up or tear me down????

And on we go~

And on I go.............

Well........its been some time since I was here and since the last time I've done exactly what I always do.........go full guns blazing, then quit.........always believing the all or nothing mentality that has been my modus operendi but never served my higher purpose at all...never gotten me any closer to where I want to be. I went to Robin Openshaw's Green Smoothie Girl class with Erin last night. It was motivation and cool to go with Erin. I am so proud of her. She has done mostly raw or vegan for almost a year now and is down 87 lbs and is on a running program! Watching her transformation has been amazing!!!
  As I listened last night I thought to myself that I have such a wealth of knowledge, I know how to do it. Saying that I have to cook for Wes or for the day care is just an excuse..yes I do have to.....but I could do things differently to make steady and lasting changes.
  I haven't been successful......I am only a few lbs less than I was a year ago. But this morning I made a green smoothie and will have a big green-full salad for lunch and some green juice for dinner. Today I will serve my higher purpose, let tomorrow come as it will~

My ills~

back & nerve pain in legs
insomnia
high blood pressure
sinus headaches
post nasal drip
no energy
pain
rosacea
eczema on hands and feet
cracked heels
split fingers
pain
dry, brittle nails
breaking, lifeless hair
depression
anxiety
pain
libido blues
low self esteem

Will add if any come to me. I've done raw before, I've done juice fasting before.......almost everything went away.so.why do I not always do them???? Good damn ??? I am addicted to crap, physically, emotionally?? Both?? I need to do some serious thinking about my what changes I CAN make.